What happened?

Someone asked me the other day...."Hey, what happened to your blog?" Well, I have gone on kind of a "blog-diet". It seemed like I was spending WAY too much time reading blogs and checking my own blog. Time that, quite honestly, I don't have to spare. (Who does, right?) And I was getting kind of wound up about stuff, like the Oprah thing. Don't get me wrong, I meant every word I wrote about Oprah, and I continue to pray for those that I think are being misled. But I just kind of needed to take a step back. I do, however, continue to pray for the "T-18 families" that I found thru blogging. I honestly believe I was led to these blogs by the Spirit so that I could be in prayer for these families. Their faith is an inspiration to me. But, from now on, my own blog will probably be confined to the more mundane details of my life.

That being said, we have been up to our eyeballs in "club volleyball" since the first weekend in January. Gracen has gotten so much better, just from playing against all the other club teams around here, and there are LOTS! It can be a VERY expensive endeavor, but we were able to get her on a team with an excellent coach for a fraction of what most parents are paying to be in club ball. So, for the most part it has been a positive experience. Notice, I said ...."for the most part" because the conduct of "some" parents has been shocking. And I don't consider myself naive about these things since Barrett played club baseball for several years. But, volleyball parents seem to be in a class by themselves!!

Another mundane detail... I am a Children's Leader in BSF, I teach a class of 13!! two year olds on Thursdays from 9-11:30. Last week, one of them bit me and another one took a swing at me, so......needless to say, I have been struggling with whether this is where God really wants me to serve. I have never been a "kid person", but when they asked me to do this, I felt it was what I was supposed to do. That was 2 years ago. Last year I taught the older class and we only had 4 kids on our role and usually only 2 of them showed up. But this year I was assigned the youngest class--2yr olds, and though our role has fluctuated, it has always been at least 11 children. Usually, it is mass chaos, as there are a few that are having a very hard time with our very structured routine. But, last Thusday was the worst day yet. I am finding myself dreading it more and more every week, and I keep praying for guidance and confirmation that this is still where He wants me to serve. Lon has said that it is obvious that I don't have joy in doing it. Which is not completely true, because there quite a few of those children that I absolutely love, and can't wait to see each week, it's just a few that I have a problem with. I just keep asking "Is it not getting any easier because I am being rebellious and keep dwelling on the fact that I wish I wasn't there, or.....maybe it's not getting easier because God is leading me to serve elsewhere?" I will certainly complete this year, but am seriously considering giving my resignation after that. But, I know that will put BSF in a big bind as far as having enough teachers for next year and possibly they wouldn't be able to open all the classes. Which would mean, some ladies might not be able to come to Bible study because they wouldn't have childcare for their children. Guilt....guilt.....guilt!! I pray that this decision will become clear in the next few weeks.